Alright.. so i'm officially an adult right now. I can officially get married without parents consent.. and i will have a part in deciding singapore's future. I'm not going to mention watching R21 shows cause that's a 'been there, done that' issue.
A couple of my 'mad' friends who called me up to wish me a happy birthday asked why didn't i organise a party. Its not a "i want to but can't" thing...
i just find it superfical.
I'm not trying to put people down.. because millions have probably celebrated their 21st birthday in style. Everyone is subjected to their own views and opinions. To me, having a party would be a waste if you're going to invite a few people, so usually we call a whole big bunch of people. Others would find this particularly easy because they have a huge bunch of friends, *cough cough*.
I have thought about it, if i were to have a party, that would mean inviting primary,sec,poly,uni friends. And thats what i hate, because these people would choose to hang out in their own respective groups, who wouldn't? Even i would. And when that happens, you can't really call it a party because they aren't exactly mixing around and thats not something we can blame. And as a host, i would go "ok.. which group shall i entertain now".. someone's bound to get left out. Big NO NO.
Another thing i wouldn't want is "you invited me especially on your birthday because you want presents right" .. To me it feels fake to call out someone that you haven't met in a long time to your birthday party because i wouldn't want them to feel that way.
Of course.. i wouldn't mind attending birthday parties, because then, i would just be an ordinary guest with no strings attached, just go there.. hang around with people i know.
People would probably think i'm a negative person, i won't 100% say i'm not.. i might be to some extent, but i've observed such situation before and i wouldn't want to host such a party.
Honestly, i didn't expect much to wish me happy birthday.... so i'm thankful to those who have gave me their birthday wishes and i'm sorry that i decided not to have a party.. not like it really matters right? *ha ha*
I guess i have to live with my cold and scary personality that people think i have?
